Today I was Scrolling linkedin when I saw one golbally recognized IT Company hiring, which goes (permanently remote) my first thought was do they hire fresher. But for obvious reason they won’t as remote work culture cannot support the idea of training a fresher from scratch. There can still be many reasons, but this stands one of it.
“However, I’m going to write some experience from my self revisits and why I don’t like the idea of remote jobs”.
Remote working spoiled my mental health and sanity.
I’m being honest when I say it, my first internship was totally remote, I did it for a very short span. But it created a long term damage to my mental health, lack of communication between fellow co-workers, senior peers created an untangled discrimination between us. As no transparency. I remember there are days, when I sleep at night but my mind was totally active dreaming about i’m working and just couldn’t finish my tasks. I had bad anxieties which ended up me losing interest in everything around my environment, including my sex drive. I can understand that can still exist if I would have been working full time from office or hybrid, but over here it became an horrifying situation to me because “my senior level people had some sort of communication barriers with me, which was mutual, and were never resolve or address. Nor it was at all cordial, with any slight of professional decorum maintained but just a bad blood”.
I felt toxicity and at so many point i felt like i will die . Lack of sleep, crippling anxiety with a near death experience, momentarily breakdown (sudden crying)it is absolutely horrifying to put that situation in words. Just it was the bad of all any one can go through.
Working from home can give you bad body posture and so many nerves disorder.
The span of my internship program was short, just a month. But it was all enough to ruin my body posture I used to lay on bed in same position for long 9 hours. I accept it was me to blame, but working from home created an addiction towards comfort in me. Particularly work from home, lead to bad body posture and several nerve disorders,i used to sit for prolonged hours in front of my laptop screen with same arm posture it caused me strain on the neck, shoulders, and back, leading to pain and discomfort. Unbearable bad pain and sleepless night.
To mitigate these risks, it’s essential to maintain good posture, take regular breaks, and exercise regularly. Which I never gave importance to. And faced severe outcomes. Additionally, i can suggest investing in desk and chair can help us prevent from these issues.
My self healing after quitting my remote job was terrible then I can imagine.
I Eventually quit my job after 1 month, lots of reasons but one of them was the toxic work environment. I felt i wanted to choose my sanity over everything. I left that place took a break healed myself. It was definitely not easy our mind is a self trained mechanism it thrives for a routine to follow, it takes a long time for brain to unlearn it. And in my case it was difficult few weeks. However, spending mandatory time with my loved one’s and self acceptance made everything back to normal now. I gave myself the break I deserve, and then again started applying looking for opportunities. In my opinion I can say that work from home is a bad idea, as a fresher we should never go for remote working. We need a physical working environment which can help us understand people analytic behavior and plan our actions, be observant. Hence, i won’t ever be going to apply for remote enquiries anymore atleast at initial phase of my career.
In summary, i will be ending this blog article by saying nothing is more important then your mental peace if your soul and mind is not happy, no matter how hard you try to concentrate on your tasks it will be getting ruined.. I knew it since day 7 of my joining that it will not be working out , my gut feelings were active but still I wanted to try. Eventually I tried but I understood I might lose myself if I continued any further.
